Still

STILL..
I lay here with you on my mind..
It seems like you are one of a kind..
STILL...
I rack my brain..
Cuz this shyt is about to drive me insane
STILL..
Wonderin why I want you so bad..
LORD Have Mercy on me cuz this is sad...
STILL..
Youre clueless on how much I want you...
Thinking to myself.. "If he only knew...
STILL...
Sayin to myself, "Wats wrong wit me"...
I need help to analyse my inner psyche..
STILL..
My body aches 4 you and I dont know why...
I just want to crawl in a dark hole and cry...
STILL...
When i see you my thoughts become obscence..
But I take a deep breath to remain serene...
STILL...
All my close friends know about my crush.
They know how i am so they keep it on hush...
STILL...
Building up the courage to confess my devotion..
To let you know that you are my one and only notion..
BUT....
STILL...
I feel that this will never be...
Truth is...
I dont have the nerve to let you get to know the real me...
STILL............

Tired

TIRED OF PEOPLE AND THEIR BULLSHYT...
LIARS, CHEATERS, AND MANIPULATORS...
MAN THIS SHYT NEEDS TO QUIT...
SOME MEN ARE SO TRIFLIN AND SOME WOMEN ARE TOO...
HAS EVERYONE 4GOTTEN HOW TO BE HONEST AND TRUE..
IVE LOVED AND LOST, IVE LIVED, LEARNED AND HAD FUN...
SHYT I AM 26 YRS OLD...
ALL THE LAME AND CHILDISH MIND GAMES SHOULD BE OVER AND DONE.
YOU SAY THAT YOURE GROWN..
SO ACT THAT WAY...
YOU TELL FOLKS YOU KEEP IT 100 SO U SHOULD MEAN EVERYTHIN YOU SAY..
I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE DONT ACT THIER AGE...
THEY ACT THEIR SHOE SIZE..
AND BE THE FIRST ONE'S TO CLAIM THAT THEY'RE NOTHIN BUT WISE.
YOU SAY YOURE READY 4 MONOGAMY..
SOMETHIN THAT IS "REAL"...
YOU ARE A GROWN ASS MAN....
TRUELY SPEAK HOW YOU FEEL...
IF YOU JUST WANTED CASUAL SEX...
YOU KNOW ME, IT WOULDVE BEEN COOL...
NOW YOUVE BEEN CAUGHT CHEATIN...
AND NOW YOU FEEL LIKE A DAMN FOOL.
I AM OH SO TIRED OF THE STUPID THINGS PEOPLE DO...
BUT MOST OF ALL...
IM SICK AND TIRED OF NIGGAS LIKE YOU..

Cry

To strong to let them come out my eyes
So imma let my words cry for me..
Life is so rough and i'm trying to be strong
I try and try to do my best but something always goes wrong
As we go thru this journey we experience our twists and turns
All the things people go thru, we just have to live and learn
The pastor always says that God takes us thru obstacles to make us stronger
But the way my life is going right now
I just don't know if I can take this much longer
The bible says that God won't put us thru more than we can bear
Yet in my heart I just don't think my life is fair
When my family goes "crazy" I do my best to be respectful... and hold my tongue
I hate drama so I just tuck in my tail and run
My heart is so heavy,I just want to cry out Loud
Instead I mask my feelings so that it seems that I'm overly proud...
I'm a good person, or at least I try to be
But sometimes I just break down and ask God
"WHY ME"?
Now people say that crying cleanses the soul...
But I've been hurt and disappointed so much..
That my heart has grown cold
I know things will get better
For all I need God will supply
Until then...
I just have to let go....
AND CRY......